Post Date: May 11, 2026
hey, to the one i love!
if you happen to find this page, this will be my letter to you a day after all of it.
before i get started, i wanted to apologize if i did not seem like i might have cried enough that night. you obviously knew that i was trying to be strong for you, but also, i knew if i let go of that strength, i might have made the irrational choice for both of us.
even now, i do not know if i made the right choice. after my mask had fallen today, i had cried so much. so much to the point that i had knocked out for most of the day, and the unfortunate thing was that it was mother’s day.
i just can’t believe that it is over… like you had said, you did not think that night was going to be our last night but it was, as we hugged and embraced each other in each other’s arms. i guess it didn’t hit me because i still have so much hope in us whether or not we were together, but today, i realized that i will be missing the romance we had experienced together as well. it is rare to find two individuals who could be so carefree and happy together. no major problems whatsoever. it truly is a miracle of a relationship, and we mutually decided to let it go. even if we do remain friends, or even if we rekindle our love for each other, it saddens me that we let this past of ours behind us.
it was too soon for sure, and that realization did not hit me until today. the news is and will be one of the worst days of my life. and i wish there was something i could have done to save us.
but as we had spoken that night, i still remain hopeful of what the future holds for us.
i don't want it to be a good bye at all, but a see you later.
the only thing that i wish for you is to be happy: whether it is with me or not.
so for now, i hope you remain focused on your studies so you can be happy when you pass your first step. i hope you continue to stay busy and not think about me. (but if i'm gonna be for real, of course i want you to think about me mwahaha; because for sure, i will be thinking about you :<) during the times that you dpi hope you find what that spark really is. i hope you are relieved of the guilt and suffering that you had put yourself through for my sake.
ugh, i could hope so many things, but right now, all i can free is just pure sadness and crying and ugh it's so painful. i really wish i could told you to stay with me forever, but i think this may be a stepping stone to your personal growth, so if i have to let you go for it, then so be it.
all i can say now is that i love you a lot. i am really going to miss you.
i have not only lost my girlfriend, but my bestfriend that i had been talking to everyday for the past four and a half years, and that makes me really sad.
i don't know anymore. i feel so lost and alone, but i guess this is just the start we both need to take.
i just need to remind you that i love you though. that's why i need to write this letter to you. i need this to throw my feelings out into the ether, regardless if you see this or not.
please stay amazing for me, my love
i heart you the mostest.